Ivy (ivy68) wrote,
Ivy
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Pondering

I'm really not doing much of anything at work these days, except getting through what has to be done immediately, browsing online, and pondering what to do with my career. I have some possibilities that are all up in the air right now, and an offer that sounds good, but not great. Admitting out loud recently that I think I don't like litigation was a major first step, but in some ways I'm even more confused because I don't feel like I have many other options. I'm getting to the point, also, where I need the financial stability in order to do the things I want to do, like have a child, but the idea of staying on this career path seems like being locked in a dungeon.

I'm also not doing much else. I was happy last week to have dinner with one friend, and then spend Saturday afternoon with a dear friend who I never get to see enough of, and then Sunday wandering about with C and seeing my family, but that's all for my social/personal life. I'm not drawing, or knitting, or taking dance classes, or going to the gym, or anything. I think I'm in some high-functioning level of depression. It's not making my life particularly difficult, but it's preventing me from doing something more to make me happier.
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